REMEMBERING GOD’S IS IN CHARGE

 

As hard as it is to admit, in the shadows of my heart, I was bargaining with God. “Yes , my son has some setback, but he will catch up. Life can still go back to normal. Through those seemingly endless months of too much paperwork and too many appointments and too much grief and too many hurdles with a three year old and our daughter around 7 years old at the time. But there was a bible verse that I’ve found very encouraging especially in difficult times. 
Deuteronomy 31:8 And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; Do not fear or be dismayed. In Life’s path for an autism parent and their child can seem uncertain, uncharted, undefined, and uncomfortable. Life for any person is uncertain but we have to have conversation with God.
Psalms 34:18 The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit. Being a special needs parent will break you from time to time. It will reveal your sin and failures faster than anything else. I often feel like I’ve failed more than succeeded. It’s amazing how often I sense God’s presence or nearness when I am broken.
I talked about how important this verse has been to my own autism journey, Autism and God’s. Nothing has been more humbling to me than parenting kids with autism. It’s been one of God’s greatest tools. It’s has shape and mold me. As soon I think I have things under control, something happens. To remind me and my family God is in control.

Anyone with a child with autism understands that the daily challenges are many. Not only many, but always changing. Each day brings the temptation to forget then I have to remember that God's is in charge. Around 2015,  our family was also struggling through some rocky “unprecedented times.” Our three year old had...his diagnoses  It felt impossible to know what to understood. Everything felt impossible but we have remain grateful and thankful not to mention focus.

I admit, I feel hopeless sometimes. I lose sight of what God is doing through us. I become frustrated, irritable, and resentful toward the challenges of autism. I forget the big picture.

Through the power of God, God has relentlessly sought to bring me out of those hard journeys. Follow us for more